A Sad Sad day at the Ballpark

Last night my hubby, daughter and I went to the Mets game... it was a fabulous game and they WON!!

I spent the night quite upset inside... I was mourning the food... I used to go to the games and enjoy an italian sausage with peppers and onions, hot dogs, corn dogs, fries, peanuts, ice cream... I mean they even have chicken fingers there now!! I missed the foot long hot dog with saurkraut and ketchup and mustard. Anyway, EVERYone around us was eating... everything... it literally was KILLING me. Why did it hurt so bad that I couldnt eat the food? Last night was probably the FIRST time I felt I regretted my surgery. I really WANTED that food. I'm literally crying right now writing this because of FOOD!!! For Gods sake... it's ONLY FOOD!!!!!!!! I do not normally get hungry... but my stomach was aching I was so hungry! Was it all in my head? We have at least 4 more games to go to this year, one being this Friday for Jon's birthday... I need to figure out what I can take with me! I guess I havent lost enough weight to really notice a difference sitting in the chairs at the ballpark. I still felt the same in the seat... I thought I might feel different except for the fact that my butt is thinner in the cheeks so sitting there HURT! My butt bones were pushing into the seat!!! lol I think I need a stadium seat pad now! :) I'm used to having more cushion!!

I know in my heart having this surgery was not a mistake... and everything will be worth it... but yesterday I felt so defeated by my surgery.